Hi. I know I am I can’t just disappear for 10 days and then come back and say hi. But hey, hi. I missed you. No, I was not ignoring you. I was not in a self-destruction mode. Well, not entirely. I was just too caught up in everything that I couldn’t find the peace (and piece)of mind I need to talk to you. But, I am here now, so, let’s catch up?
I’ll be honest and tell you that I do not remember all the things I did in these 10 days and so I won’t be able to give you an hour by hour outline but I can tell you that these were the most productive days of the year.
Mostly, I was busy with Its Hemp. Would you believe it? I came up with the idea of hosting a nation-wide Secret Santa to bring people together and with a little help from Srijan (obviously), we were able to pull it off! It’s still going on because it is intended for the new year but it’s going pretty steady and I am proud of it.
Other than that, there was a little bit of work here, a little bit there but another thing that made these days the most productive was that I started chanting again. Yep, you read that right. So, on a random day, I got this lightning bolt of a realization of how much I truly missed being able to chant and converse with my BSG family. So I sat down and started chanting. Just like that. And before I knew it, I had chanted for an hour.
And then, Aanchal (bless her soul) called me out of the blue to invite me to a meeting. I went and it was the best fucking decision. Since last week, my practice has been going on steady. I’ve been chanting for 2 hours a day and I also did a 3:20 on Sunday. I think its primarily because of that that I have finally found time to talk to you.
The introvert in me wants to tell you, very proudly, that I have been socializing a little (we’ll focus on feeling guilty about that later) and I have made 3 new friends whom I am truly beginning to cherish. So, yeah, that. ❤
Other than that, life has been pretty good. My unexpected and inexplicable mood swings continue to come and go but I am so okay with them that I don’t even care anymore.
I can catch up on today!
Today began late! I woke up from bhaiya’s call at 7:30 and then just ran down the stairs. But by 8:30, everything was restored to normal and I finally had my morning cup of chai. I chanted for an hour and then left for office. You were so unexpectedly cold today, by the way. Thanks.
Pretty busy day at work. I was a little blah when I sat down to work but it just got okay then so I shrugged it off. Then, we had butter chicken for lunch (so much for thinking of detoxifying my body) but hey! I had a guava before that so that’s cool. Right?
Anyway, I came home at 4 because this week its my turn to dog-sit Ram Dayal from 4:30 to 7:00.
It is 6:49 pm as I write this to you with Ram Dayal napping in my lap. And I don’t really have a musing of the day, or 10 days, but just that in these 10 days, I have been at peace. I did go into a self-destruction mode on Monday and Tuesday but I’m okay. I’ve got this. ❤
See you when I see you, December,
Love, and lots of it,